Let's walk down the memory lane.

I promise i won't cry even if there isn't any soul standing beside me when everything's in disarray because i know that Allah is here, He is always near me. (':

www.lyfelikethis.blogspot.com is unprivatised & open to all blog readers for viewing. Have a good laugh while reading to all the old entries. Pardon me for some posts that doesn't make sense or errors here and there, wrong this & that or whatever it is. haha! :P Peculiar thing i've learnt about myself. I didn't realise that i was quite long-winded on some entries and ended up typing on a super duper long post. LOL! >.< I truly treasure all my blog posts no matter how lame & illogical they could get sometimes after i've read them again cuz they are my chain of thoughts for that moment. That blog really sparks some inspirations in myself & light up the darkness i'm undergoing right now. 

How time flies... By the time i knew it, i'm already committing myself to the nation, turning 20 years old soon, drifting away from my childhood & teenagers' lifestyle. Everything seems so surreal, like an illusion that gives me a misleading impression of reality. And guess what? Whenever i see students wearing their full school uniform attire, i get easily envy of them. Life as a student ain't hard at all actually as compared to what i'm facing through right now. It all boils down to each individual root value. I guess i didn't have some values planted well in me. :/ Well, what can i say. Perhaps humans are always taking things for granted. They don't genuinely cherish & appreciate things when they had it, but when it's gone, that's when regrets begin to encompass their soul. 

I'll be going for 6 days & 5 nights fieldcamp which includes 2 days of sit-test from 270512-010612. Please pray for me, aites? May Allah bless. (:

p.s: Those were the old good days, eh? (:

No one. Except Him. (:

The reality is...

"If you ask me how i'm doing, i would say i'm doing just fine. I would lie and say that you're not on my mind."~

Huge mess - Leave it or fix it?

Everyone has the liberty to make choices in their life. However, what they need to consider in mind is the repercussions that they might be landed on once that decision of theirs have been made. I have a choice; whether to give myself some encouragements & most imperatively, 'hope' or just drives towards the mindset of a pessimist who has endless worries & negativities in mind. I know that it will never be easy especially when the odds always put a halt to one of the moves you made but something worthwhile is always worth the risk to pursue on, right? (; 'No pain, no gain'. I promise that i'll pick up every single thing that i've lost & have it all glued & fixed together. Insya-Allah, Allah permits for it to happen. Amin. I need Your Guidance, Ya Rabb, please calm my heart & don't let me feel too disappointed of everything. :( 

p.s: Cuz i'm strong like this & that & i believe that behind every sorrow lies hidden mercy from the Al-mighty. (: 

Nobody said it was easy but nobody said it would be that hard. :/

Just when i feel like hopes are gone, i took a glance of your pic & i decided to swallow back my sorrows & pain. Yes, your pic, mak. [': There's never a day while i'm in camp that i didn't take a quick glance of that photo of you & i. I understand that you are doing the same thing too deep inside; trying your very best to wipe those tears & be mentally & emotionally strong especially on this worldly celebrated occasion - Mothers' Day. Though nenek is no longer with us anymore, she's always with us spiritually and we will constantly remember her in our prayers, Insya-Allah. You won't be able to understand the grief of losing your loved ones unless you experience it yourself. Both my grandparents from my maternal side have passed away. :/ Mum, I have to be frank to you that, what i perceive the situation you're in is disparate from what you perceive it from your own perspective. For that, please forgive me mum if i can't truly understand what you're feeling right now. :/ I promise that i'll do the exact same thing as you when i feel like life has no meaning & the future is bleak. 'Cause you always reminds me that everytime i lose my way, i should hold tighter to my faith, seeking help from the Al-mighty & never lose hope for He has planned something even better for me in His own time & way. ("La tahzan, innaAllahh maana") Insya-Allah. [':

p.s: Dear you, I have a zillion of things to share with you but somehow i realize it's just not right & doesn't feel the same anymore... I don't know why. Tkpelah, I'll be patient & wait. :'[ 

Sometimes you gotta break down and breathe~

Wanna know how i genuinely feel about the 7 days in a week, you can now understand by this tumblr quote pic. Annoying much k. D:<

Camwhoring with this little cute bear baby! hahahaha!xD 

Though she could be irritating at times, she really brightens up my day.

Kinda miss her a lot while i'm in camp. ;/

My cover photo for the new FB timeline version. Edited this yesterday night. Love the outcome. [:

Waiting for each and every single day to elapse is torturous. 

Clinging on to hope for which seems uncertain right now is even worse. 

May Allah guide me & show me the light to undergo the predicaments i'm facing. :/ 

I didn't plan anything special this weekend cuz i wanted to spend more time with my dearest family. Nothing beats the warmth, tender & loving are you receive from you own family. Mushy much! lol. <: On a serious note, i've been very worried about my mum lately. She complaint about having chest pain and she did visit the polyclinic to have a medical review. The doctor gave her a referral letter to a hospital and asked my mum to place an appointment ASAP. Hopefully she'll be fine & nothing serious will happen to her.:/  I can't keep my mind at ease after hearing that news from her while i was in camp. Do pray for my mum alright? :'/

p.s: Walaupun jarak perjauhan menghambat pertemuan, masih tercari-cari arah tujuan, mengharapkan berakhirnya penantian, doaku sentiasa untukmu; keluargaku dan teman-temanku. Insya-Allah. [: 

The look in our eyes, we can turn the time~

10 more weeks Zul! You can do it! *siren alert* ENDURE, ENDURE! :O

Well, i did promise that i'll update on sat night but apparently I was too tired and a lil bit of not-in-the-right-state-of-mind mood to blog, so yeah, i apologise for the 'janji melayu' okei. Anyway, this post gonna be a boring one so you could do the necessary by clicking the close tab. TYVM. haha! :P


I got to book-out on saturday morning because of the TWO BIG 'CURSED' FAT letters, RT ---> REMEDIAL TRAINING! Come to think of it, it wasn't really that bad to stay for another night and somehow i began to look at the sunny side of the picture, that is, i'll be out from that island in a few hours time once i wake up the next morning... =.= 


Ok, DAH BORING! Let's move on! ^^


So, i took the train from Pasir Ris and alighted at Tampines to attend Bahas 4PM briefing session with the fellow 2012 debaters. Woohoo! ^^ Hell yeah, i was so excited to meet the Bahas people once again. It just felt right again. Bukan sahaja berbakti dan berkhidmat kepada negara ajer k, dengan bangganya juga menghadirkan diri dan menghulurkan bantuan kepada 4PM. hahaha! xD Tamp lib holds such precious memories that are impossible, i repeat, impossible to be eradicated from my mind. Really. :/ 


FASTFORWARD>>> Sunday afternoon

 JCO Yoghurt! (: 

Look at the colour contrast of our outfits. Blue, Pink, Purple! Get it? haha. 

 K, i love this pic. Period. <3 :DD

Had a splendid time filled with endless laughters, lame jokes and not forgetting WALKING with bibik frutti (Ain) and bibik tutti (Syafikah) (from left to right). Waduh2! hahaha! xD Kalau dorang baca post nieh, habislah! :O Mesti kena kicap dengan itu dua olang. LOL! :P Anyway, i'll be meeting Ain tmr to pass her belated birthday's gift. Hope she like it! (: 


I understand that this post is uber merepek tahap melampau, language berterabuh, lacking of details, blah, blah, blah, lists goes on and on... but if you want to know the truth, i intended to write something personal, something more related to what i'm experiencing now. Sadly enough, i've lost the momentum to do so, not too long ago. -___- 


p.s: You have just wasted about 5 mins of your time reading this post. Told you so. =.= 

Your smile makes me stronger! (:

Will update a post on this coming sat night. Insya-Allah. (: 

I swear i have truckloads of things to rant about in this blog. hahaha! 

But time is not doing me any justice! >:(

May you all have a blessed week ahead. Tc! Assalamualaikum! (: